This past year I have had to learn things the hard way. Getting older, job challenges/changes, family and dealing with very difficult people. It's not that I never had problems before (everyone has problems) but this year, I have had situations that were just "HULKED OUT" and have literally changed the way that I see life.
I have had to make some hard decisions this past year when it comes to people, family and schedule. Many of the changes I have made, I didn't want to make. For most of my life, I have been a people pleaser. Worried about hurting someone else's feeling and looking like the bad guy. But my worrying and pleasing always left me hurt, bothered and uncomfortable in my own skin and that is what I am tired of now.
I turned 44 this year and I am still mistaken for a much younger women (sometimes girl) when my hair is right and freshly dyed! LOL! But I have to admit, my body is very much 44 years old. My vision is getting bad, recovering from a class or running takes A LOT more TIME and I literally can not remember what I did a day ago. . .aka. . .memory loss like a mother-of-a-trucker! HA! My hair is growing like a weed but it's all coming in gray and I just learned recently that it's called having a skunk head if I let it go for too long. Oi!
I can complain about getting older but we are all getting older. It could be A LOT worse! I have to admit...I love being the mom that can still run up and down the soccer field and yell "GO MARZ. . .kick that ball, baby!" or run along the same course as my 16 year old XC superstar and yell "NIA B. . .PICK UP YOUR ARMS and PUSH!". I can still beat my husband riding a bike and be strong enough to play golf with him from time to time (ok, I watch but I imagine us playing together and beating him...that will never happen...LOL!). So, let's bring on the next 40 years!
This one is a hard one. I am not naming names or making a list on social media. I am not that person BUT what I will say is that I am not allowing people to take indirect hits at me or my family anymore. I will not accept negative comments or people in my life. I will pray for those who are "not playing fair" and wish them the best but I will not be an open door for those who like to take advantage of me.
I will take full responsibility for anything I may have done to someone else. I say that because sometimes we can do things to others and not even know it. We are caught up in our own lives, schedules and situations not realizing we are hurting others. So, in order to grow take a good look at yourself. Be prepared to make changes that you may not want to make but need to in order for your life improve. No one is perfect. No one.
FAMILY and FRIENDS
I love my family. My "familia" (my husband and girls) and my family outside of my home. I have a family with unnecessary issues but no matter how angry I may get or they are with me, I still love them. My parents are always there for us and I am beyond humbled and grateful for them.
My husband and I have faced A LOT of challenges here in San Diego but we are still here. We have been married for 20 years and it has not been easy but worth it. What I can say, I love him more than I have ever loved him and I never thought that was possible but it is. My girls are OUR heart and they have had a STELLAR year academically and athletically. I could not ask for more.
The meaning of "friends", for me, has been redefined. This has been the year of hanging with my friends and getting in tune with how I feel once I leave them. How did I act around them and what did I get out of being around them. "Was I a friend to them?". Hard but necessary. If I wasn't sure, I would ask, discuss and make my decision from there.
I know that none of this seems like FITNESS stuff but it is. It is FITNESS for the MIND and the SOUL. In order for you to enjoy your life, you have to pray, meditate or be quiet for a little while and ask yourself, "what do I need out of my life to make it better?". You can make drastic moves or soft ones. . .as long as your heart is in the right place and it will enrich your life in the process. Never give up on yourself and your creator. I do believe in loving yourself "exactly the way that you are" FIRST is important before you love anyone else.
In 2015, I am going to speak more about being a "FitME". I hope that I can encourage others to be the best they are right now and start a domino effect from there! Happy New Year and Happy Soul Sunday.