When I was a little girl, I often lied to my parents to get out of trouble. In my young mind, they were little lies. Some worked and some didn't. Yet, after a few too many little lies and a several spankings to follow, I started to learn lying wasn't getting me anywhere. I had to be about 10 or 11 years old and my Dad caught me in a lie. I mean he literally watched the whole thing unfold and now that I am older with kids, he had to be shocked at how easy it was for me to NOT tell the truth! I had never seen him so upset and I didn't see the outside of my room for quite some time after that one.
I remember sitting there, PISSED thinking..."how dare he keep me in this room for so long! What the heck?...and he won't talk to me!". Yeah, I was young and stupid. LOL! Looking back, he did the right thing because being my room for hours with nothing to do, I finally realized that lying wasn't helping me. I was always getting into trouble and missing out on all the fun things with the neighborhood kids. So, I decided THAT DAY, no more lying!
Fast forward to today...right now, I don't lie and it's hard for me to lie about anything. I am a very truthful person and for some, too truthful. I don't like to be lied to and I know a lie when I see one. One thing I didn't realize is that I was living a lie and I didn't see it the same as telling a lie. Living a lie was different, right?...it's not. I didn't have a perfect marriage, raising my girls was hard and finding that perfect job was even tougher. Being who I am in a world where everyone else is exactly the same was/is TOUGH and it was tough because it was all a lie. I was lying to myself and didn't know it.
Today, my truth is the most important thing in my life. It is literally saving me and keeping me sane. Unfortunately, I have learned what it feels like to be lied to by people I put trust in. It's truly disappointing and heartbreaking. Yet, the truth, like they say, will absolutely set you free. I never really understood what that meant until I started to tell MYSELF the truth about my life. The truth can be painful and surprising, but at the same time, it is so much more. The truth is freedom, strength, power, stability and a muscle that continues to grow. Truth IS growth, happiness and progression. It's everything and when you see it, you know it because it scares you and makes your heart sing at the same time.
Are you living your truth?
I am definitely living mine and let me tell you, it's a journey and it is scary but I love every minute of it. I keep those who I trust close to me and I listen to learn. There are definitely some things I need to work on D A I L Y and I do, even when I don't want to. If I can't tackle a untruthful situation right away, I write it down and pray, why? What I can not control God/the Universe (whatever you believe in) will take care of it. Let me tell you, God ALWAYS takes care of it.
- Write down your truths
- Stop lying to yourself about yourself right now.
- Pray / Meditate on the things you do not have control over
- Start walking in your truth one step at a time
- Be prepared for your life to change